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School!
Elayna is at school! :) She wanted to wear her uniform jumper anyway, so she did.... with a lace-collared shirt, white knee socks, black Mary Janes, and one of the color-hanging headbands I bought her in the Bahamas. We got a picture of her, but yendi doesn't have the cable to upload it at work, so we'll post it tonight.

Parking at that school is nuts. There's not enough room, and the problem was compounded by the fucking assholes in SUVs that decided they merited two spots. I managed to get a spot, but it took me about as long to get out of it after dropping Miss Kid off as it would to get out of a parking spot at a punk concert.

Her class has 26 kids on the roll - TEMPORARILY. Not all of the kids actually turned up to register, but they had to be assigned anyway. The teacher reassured us that if that many kids actually show up, a new teacher will be hired, and the overflow will be redistributed.

Elayna gave her teacher a charm bracelet. She's a good kid.

Quotable Quote from this weekend
Me: "You have weird taste in women."
Him: "I seem to remember you tasting very good, actually."

Writing
I didn't get it done. I suck. I talked more with penguinboi and listened to my shout-out on Radio Nosferatu instead. Bad 'song. *smacks own hand* Perhaps tomorrow, because tonight is LEWD.....

LEWD
Let's kick it off at 6 tonight, because Miss Kid needs to be in bed at 8. We'll do ice cream at 7. People can come late, of course, but from about 7-7:30 we will not be at the house; be forewarned! We have the Denis Leary Roast on Tivo, if people want to watch that. :)

Stealing an excellent idea from elvie

"The question is this: What unique identifiers do I have in your mind? That is, what things do you associate with me that you don't associate with anyone else.

See if you can think of three, as trivial as you like :D"

I already know that several of you think of me when you see chai. And phantom_wolfboy apparently thinks of me when he sees gay porn.

What about the rest of you?

Lyrical

Song going through my head re: this weekend....

Good Good Things, The Descendents

i know a place, up in the air
it's not very far, i've been there before
i know a place, cool and warm
cooling my blood, warming my heart
so come on down and walk with me,
and tell me i'm your man
i only want to know a couple of things about you
where were you when i was in so much trouble with myself
and do you still believe in me
like i believe
i've been thinking good good things about you
cool and warm, good good things about you
if you've been thinking good good things about me
so cool and warm when you put your arms around me
on my own, i know where to go
living the life, in your eyes
i know a place, cool and warm
cooling my blood, warming my soul
so come on down and walk with me, and tell me i'm your man
let's see if i can get it right with you this time around
i'm not afraid of losing you, my little girl
but do you still believe in me like i believe
i've been thinking good good things about you
cool and warm, good good things about you
if you've been thinking good good things about me
so cool and warm when you put your arms around me ....

It was awkwardly cute, actually.

I keep meaning to post about this...

I went to JavaMonkey with vidicon on Saturday night, after dinner. Vid and I were both casual as hell. I still had Tangly Sex Hair from the morning, so I just had it skimmed back into a low ponytail. Jeans, plain solid-color t-shirt, no makeup. When I ordered my chai, Vid was on the phone with bheansidhe.... we sat at a table, and he waited for the line to clear up, then went up to get his coffee.

So I'm sitting at the table alone, sipping my chai, and this guy comes in. It's a guy I've noticed looking at me before at least once... (last Tuesday? Or Thursday? I think it was Thursday, with Tuan.) Dark hair and Elvis Costello glasses. He sees me - and does a sharp detour to put his books on the table next to mine before going off to order.

He managed to get back to his table before Vid got back to ours, so I scribbled a bit in my notebook so's to politely avoid eye contact. Just a little weirded by the guy. Not in a bad vibes way, but he was very intent.... and my dance card is full anyway. I don't know whether he was disappointed when Vid arrived or puzzled that I was having coffee with a different man. Maybe he felt encouraged. I dunno. I think too much.

The point to all of this? It's just good to know that I look sufficiently cute even with no makeup and my hair pulled way back; the hair is my finest feature, and I never feel attractive with it back.

The people in my neighborhood....

Is there anyone I talk about that you're curious about? In terms of my relationship to them? If so, ask here, and I'll clarify.....

Well, that's interesting.

Starting Marina's letter to Jason for the Shayara story, I automatically jotted the date down as "13 March".

Why? Hardwired from Sunday school; 13 Adar is the day when all of the Jews were originally scheduled to be massacred, but were spared by Queen Esther's courage; we celebrate Purim in memory of this on 14 Adar. Purim usually takes place in March.

Hm. Interesting that that's the set of associations that surfaced.

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ocean_song -- i wish you were free for lunch. i'd thrown on just anything and zoom over to meet you somewhere

Dude! I almost always am. I'm lunching with libidoergosum today, and we have Things of Import to discuss, but I'm free most every other day. You available tomorrow?

This goes for all of you Atlanta people, really - I only get an hour, but I'm almost always available to eat off-campus with y'all. Just let me know if you wanna.

Posting just to post.....

libidoergosum expressed a concern that I occasionally post just for the sake of posting, assuming that that meant I was letting the rock star thing get to my head.

Nope.

When I'm doing the content-free posting-just-to-post thing... it generally means I'm depressed. When I'm depressed, I retreat.... not just not LJing, but not speaking to anyone in person. Curled up on the couch and not speaking.

So the posting-just-to-post is most often just my way of keeping myself here and present, to keep myself from descending....

...but most of the rest of lunch, we talked about other people. Very educational. :)

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Her: "He looks at me like you look at me...."
He pulls a wry, cynical face; she throws a roll at him; he catches it and takes a bite, grinning.
Her: "...not that look!"
Him: "Okay - which look, then?"
She stills, looks inward. Hesitantly: "The look you give me that says you love me so damn much that you can't understand why I don't love myself."
He smiles softly, giving her exactly that look. "Good. Now... when are you going to start seeing that look in the mirror?"
She sticks her tongue out at him, then busies herself with the menu: "Hey, dessert! We can have dessert..."

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EDIT: And why did I write this? Because I tried to draw it on Saturday - not the conversation, comic-style, but that look. And I'm hopeless at art, I'll never capture in in color and line; much of my writing is an attempt to capture the visual. I hope that I do well at it.

Bookmark for self

http://www.siamese-dream.com/

Jewelry, statuary, ceremonial items....

on my mind

in the beginning...
...it's like you have your eyes closed.... tracing warm skin with fingers to find out where the scars are, where inadvertent pressure can bring searing pain.... making a map in your head.... and he's stumbling in the dark, too, his mission the same....

arguing
How I argue with Zan: Heh. We're 90% identical, so we get set off exactly the same way - and we go straight to towering rage, yelling, but at the same time, we're analyzing why we reacted to each other poorly, and as soon as we figure it out, we're peachy keen again.
How I argue with libidoergosum: He gets clipped and military, which I don't react to well, having once been married to the military; I get belligerent in defense. Once he gets non-military, I'm calm and we can talk.
How I argue with Elayna: Oh, we just need to be separated. Stick us in our rooms for half an hour and we're fine.

damage
Does anyone ever come to anyone undamaged? Is the difference just that I acknowledge it?

I need to get my degree. I'm doing enough unofficial counseling. I need to be able to do it officially. Problem: my university doesn't offer night classes. I could take daytime classes, but then I'd have to make up the time - and I can't. yendi doesn't drive, so he can't pick Miss Kid up from school.

LEWD in Review

It was a small LEWD this week... night_child and her son, mermaidblue, reprobayt, and thetuan, in that order. All of whom thoroughly rock my world. night_child is going to fit right in over here. *evil grin* There was ice cream, general getting to know each other, watching of Spaceballs, and teasing of Tuan regarding his late birthday gift.

Tuan: "Were cows injured in the making of it?"
Me: "Yes!" (this after a slew of guesses in the vein of "does it shoot spiky things?")
Yendi: "Are cows ever NOT injured in the making of anything?"
Tuan: "Other cows?"
Me: "Yeah! The probably have fun then."
Yendi: "But pregnancy could harm cows."
Tuan: "They don't get harmed. They just get.... stretched."

Okay. I catch up on friends list, then go to bed.