*sigh*

[shadesong]

Went to bed around 11.

Woke up at 2:30, rattled by a series of twisty dreams, the kind where you're never sure if they're really dreams, or where you are, or, in this case, *when* you are. Suddenly wide awake. At 2:30 AM. Fuck.

Some of the dreams were about the big office move this upcoming week. I'm not really rattled about the move itself, it's just that I'm going to be going in to work tomorrow and I won't know what to do. All of my stuff is packed, including my computer. Should I just read a book til my boss gets there? Should I walk over to the new building? What if my phone's been disconnected and I can't call in?

Those of you who know me know about my weird social anxiety stuff. Essentially, I need a "roadmap" for the simplest of tasks, I need to be exactly sure of what I am doing. When I go someplace unfamiliar, I need very specific directions, and if something isnn't according to plan, I quietly freak. So my internal roadmap for work is to arrive at the office at around 7:25, walk down to Caribou with yendi (where, twice or three times a week, I will buy an iced chai), walk back to the office, arrive at 7:50, unlock classrooms, clock in, distribute faxes, then check and dispense with e-mail and do LJ until my boss comes in around 9, when I start *actually* working. Hot cocoa with Jeanette at 10. Lunch at noon. Always.

So tomorrow I'm going to go fetch my coffee, unlock classrooms... and then, I don't know what I'm to do for the next hour. Which is apparently concerning me so much that I'm losing sleep. I'm totally upfucked, aren't I?

So. Ate some cookies, and now will LJ and read until I feel tired enough to return to bed.

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Comments

[voltbang.livejournal.com]

I vote for reading the book till the boss arrives to provide guidance.

[shadesong.livejournal.com]

I'm sure that's what I'll do. Or do Shayara outlines, or something.

[phantom_wolfboy]

I need a "roadmap" for the simplest of tasks, I need to be exactly sure of what I am doing. When I go someplace unfamiliar, I need very specific directions, and if something isnn't according to plan, I quietly freak.

Me too. I'm slightly freaked right now, because our schedule changes in august to an earlier closing time, and I have no idea what to tell my staff about when to come in.

And everyone who could advise me is on vacation.

[shadesong.livejournal.com]

Yowch. Yeah, that sucks.


I have the barest of ideas here... I know that two of us should be at the new building and two of us at the old building. I don't know which two. And like I said, I get there an hour before everyone else. And we're supposed to be "directing the movers", but we're the 4th or 5th department to move into this building, so I'm pretty sure the movers know what they're doing. No computer, no files to unpack yet, no clue.


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