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[shadesong]

I get a little weirded out when I'm told that I'm an inspiration or that I'm special and stuff just due to having gone through my fucked-up childhood and adolescence and making it out alive....

I guess for me it's always come down to this: I have two choices. I can take the next step on my path, keep fighting, keep going - or I can curl up and wither and die. And if I die, They win.

Well, I'm not going to let them win. And I don't think any of you would, either; I think in my situation, all of you would be capable of doing what I'm doing....

I dunno. Like I said. I'm just winging it. :)


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Comments

[m0usegrrl.livejournal.com]

too many people would just curl up and die, rather than fight, given circumstances and events similar to what you've gone through.

you're a survivor, a tough lil' cookie, and an amazing person to know.

just keep wingin' it... ::hugs::

[manifestress.livejournal.com]

Just keep breathing! And keep talking about it - keep posting - we're all here to support you!

[metaphorge.livejournal.com]

We only can truly see ourselves reflected in the eyes of others. :)

Hard to admit you rawk to yourself, isn't it? ;)

[shadesong.livejournal.com]

:P

[two-star.livejournal.com]

Oh song, you're not an inspiration to me, if that makes you feel better.

[shadesong.livejournal.com]

Actually, it does - thanks, Owen. :)

[amai-unmei.livejournal.com]

I'm not taking my words back. :)

You rule because you managed to bring yourself up to be a decent human being, despite your parents' influence. RAWK!

[karmaryllis.livejournal.com]

It speaks volumes about you as a person that you could get through an ordeal like that and still be the awesome and amazingly talented person that you are. Despite what you may think, you fuckin' rock, my dear.

Why is it that we can see greatness in others, but not see it in ourselves? :/

[shadesong.livejournal.com]

*deep blush* Am not. :P

How's the parental visit going? I'm due for mine on Monday...

[karmaryllis.livejournal.com]

They were supposed to get here tonight...but due to their car air-conditioner conking out, they had to leave the car at my sister's in Maryland and get a rental, which cost them an extra 3 hours' time. They're now in Charlotte and are staying there tonight, so they likely won't be here until at least 1PM tomorrow. Which is very very good, because I still have lots more cleaning to do. I was really stressed out earlier, but can breathe a bit easier now. :)

[gev.livejournal.com]

the true shame is that most people who see greatness in themselves are WRONG.</pre

[iroshi.livejournal.com]

It's not that you made it out alive, sweetheart. It's that you made it out a fabulous person. The vast, vast majority of people who get hurt as badly as you have been may come out alive, but they come out bitter, nasty people. You, on the other hand...love, you would be an inspiration of goodness even if you hadn't gotten there by going through hell first.

And yeah, I know it feels a little weird to hear things like this. That doesn't make them any less true.

My first fiance just told me today that he felt honoured to call me a friend. A man I used to have nightmares about for years is coming to me for someone to talk to and to get advice from. Weird where life drops you, just following your Path, isn't it?

[shadesong.livejournal.com]

"Weird where life drops you, just following your Path, isn't it?"

Very weird indeed... :)

*hugs* Iroshi

Accept yourself as a wonder

[wolfieboy.livejournal.com]

Why do you question how or where you are an inspiration to people when you posted this entry, you Child of the Universe, you?

Re: Accept yourself as a wonder

[shadesong.livejournal.com]

I stole that from Fi's journal *after* I posted this one... and the point of that is that *all* of us are special! I'm no more special than anyone else. We're all strong and brave. :)


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