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Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 09:55 am

Do you ever wonder what it would be, if it wasn't Shayara?
It's been a few different things. Shayara is the one that's snapped into my brainmeats the most; it's my life's work.

It'd be interesting to see which of my other worlds would be most prominent of Shayara didn't exist. Probably And These Places That You Haunt, now that I think of it.

How difficult do you find it to write anecdotes?
Not very. I tend to push my fiction more than I should, just to have written something so I can feel Accomplished. The nonfiction anecdotes just pop out fully-formed whenever they feel like it.

Tea and Cake or Death?
Yes.

Anything I would ask is likely entirely too personal for an answer...
*aggrieved sigh* *sticks out tongue*

How long does it take you to read your full friends list?
That's difficult to assess - because I don't just sit down and read it. I read bits whenever I can. And I haven't always been reading it lately; I've sort of given myself permission to let it slide when I don't feel up to it.

Do you think I yam sessy?
J00 are so sessy!

Hmm... Should I go to grad school or get a better job? :-)
Yes.

So if you had any kind of Krispy Kreme in front of you, what kind would it be in a perfect world?
Only one? If it was only one, it would not be a perfect world.

Mmmm. I love Original Glazed. Also, I want cinnamon.

You seem unhappy with me, or at least not very friendly. Just curious.
This answer can go out to anyone who feels this way.... I've just been pulling inward a lot lately. Cocooning. Freaked out by health issues, more even than I've said here.

Don't worry about this - it's not you. When I have a problem with someone... they will Know about it! *hug*

how come when you do polls and stuff people actually answer them but when i do them they get studiously ignored?
Dunno... I very rarely answer polls like this, because I totally draw a blank.

Which icon is your favorite?
The Elayna one. I just love my daughter's smile!

Why are you unhappy with your body? You looked great at WMGA.
Thank you! :) My body's having lots of Issues right now; most of them a result of the anti-seizure medicine I've been on. Been having balance problems, dizziness, concentration issues, etc., but the stuff that's freaking me out the most right now is the rapid inexplicable weight loss (I went from 135 to 92, and I'm still dropping) and attendent hair loss. The weight loss is worrisome because the more I lose, the more fragile my system is - the hair loss is just a hy00ge blow to the ego. :(

I'm ditching fetish modeling to pursue more artsy-fartsy modeling. Am I completely insane here? Probably.
You already knew you were insane, though! And hi, back!

when was your last orgasm?
How sad is it that I can't remember. Master has stringent rules, and it's very difficult to follow them; it's like waiting for The Great Conjunction in The Dark Crystal, matching all of the necessary rules and opportunities. Been at least a week, possibly two.

do you feel that you would be the same person today if you were not raped
Nope. Not at all!

As for y'all telling me things...

*I only knew about D. Yay love!

* I'm not sure why I'm not really writing about my "sexual adventures" anymore. They're few and far between! But what I do with Master feels very private. I'm not under orders; it just doesn't feel right.

* Okay, that's TWO Krispy Kreme mentions. Someone better fetch me some fuckin' Krispy Kremes, y0.

* It's funny how whenever you and I have "tell me a secret" polls, we always tell each other the same secret. "Yep. Still happening."



Ask me/tell me more!
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 07:54 am (UTC)
Rats! I came up with another question and don't get to answer twice.

Bonus question: If you were not already in a relationship with Yendi, do you think your relationship with Master would be different (boyfriend/girlfriend rather than M/s)?
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 08:48 am (UTC)
Does not compute!

I'm poly... so I could have like six boyfriends or girlfriends, if I felt that way about six people and everyone got along. So it's not a matter of defining things in terms.

[livejournal.com profile] volta owns me. He just does. :) There's no way we couldn't be my Master... but that's not any less than boyfriend/girlfriend in my mind. Rather, it's more...

Does that make sense?
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 09:44 am (UTC)
Yes? You know that polyamory is outside of my epistemological frame of reference. Every "example" of it I've seen around me has involved a lot of chaos and pain.

Maybe I was thinking in terms of a primary relationship or a "life partner" (as opposed to someone you love but do not share day to day living chores with. If Yendi wasn't a partner to you the way he is, do you think you'd have that kind of relationship with Volta?

Does that make sense? Thank you for being willing to share your experience with me!
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004 06:28 am (UTC)
Every "example" of it I've seen around me has involved a lot of chaos and pain.

Eeee. :(

If Yendi wasn't a partner to you the way he is, do you think you'd have that kind of relationship with Volta?

Mmmm. Probably.
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 09:59 am (UTC)
And yet another question...how does marriage fit into a polyamorous lifestyle?

Please let me know if I'm prying or being annoying!
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 07:58 am (UTC)
So true. Hee.
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 08:13 am (UTC)
Hey 'Song, I didn't want to be pushy by putting it in your poll, but I have two tickets to give away to a festival in WV (won them over the weekend, so they cost me nothing, but it turns out I can't go). You have a much bigger readership than I do. Do you mind if I pimp it here? I want the tickets to go to a good home, and I need to mail them out fast if they're going to get to anyone in time for use.

Tickets are for the avalon festival in Paw-Paw WV, Aug 13-15, featuring John Gorka, Groovelily, Joe Glazer, Amilia Spicer, Mad Agnes, Randy Barrett Trio and others.

This is a clothing optional resort.

www.avalon-resort.com

I really hope you don't mind me mentioning this here, but you have so many more folks reading than I do, and I'd feel horrible if these were wasted.
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 11:24 am (UTC)
How horrifically shallow of me not to assume you were talking about your HEALTH...

*laughs at self*
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 11:34 am (UTC)
Oh! *laugh* Well, it's that, too - the hair thing. Major ego blow.

*hug*
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 02:52 pm (UTC)
How did I know you'd say that...
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004 01:52 am (UTC)
The hair loss...I really hear you on that :( My hair has thinned by 1/3-1/2 what it used to be since I got sick. Even though people tell me they can't tell (no obvious bald spots or anything), I can tell.

It's a massive blow. My hair is pretty much the only part of me that I like :(
Wednesday, August 11th, 2004 06:23 am (UTC)
See, another way we're alike - though I wish neither of us had to deal with this!

It's not obvious to those who haven't met me before. But it is to those who have. You can see my scalp when my hair is wet... *sigh* My hair apparently fluffs up enough when it dries to not show my scalp, but I KNOW how much I'm supposed to have, and this freaks me out!

Ditto on the hair being the only feature I like(d)...