So.

[shadesong]

In reading lots of stuff last night, I came to the conclusion that this is a time of change for me.... a time when I've been given the opportunity to make a conscious choice as to which behaviors I'll continue to carry with me. So I'm leaving behind the behaviors that this ex-friend, in part, symbolizes for me. I'm doing sort of a mental inventory, and I'm only continuing to carry those behaviors that are beneficial to me - and I'm getting back on the path that I derailed from a long time ago. And I'm reading Moonheart again, because it's an important book to me. :)

I do have to do some thinking about Shayara, as I used quite a few characteristics on the ex-friend's personality in the character of Kieran... but Kieran was based on someone else (Josh - before y'all's time) before that, and he's always been an amalgam. So I have to sit down and really consider Kieran, distance him in my head from the ex-friend, so I don't make him a whiny, arrogant bitch of a man. :)

Wish me luck on my journey! :)

Comments

[tikimama.livejournal.com]

You have my good luck thoughts! I totally respect your stubborness, so I know you'll go far. :)

[shadesong.livejournal.com]

I'm nothing if not stubborn. :)

[m0usegrrl.livejournal.com]

see? the corvids were telling you something... =)

good luck, lil' sister... ::hugs:: i know you'll do just great.

[shadesong.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thanks. :)

I love how the little mood kitty is wearing glasses just like me! :)

[darkmattr.livejournal.com]

Perhaps someone else to base a character on, *COUGH* ahem.

[shadesong.livejournal.com]

*raised eyebrow*

I'll use you as you fit into the story.... but you are *not* an idealistic young man.

Seriously, the character isn't based on him - the character's been around for over 10 years. I just used parts of his personality to help define the character, to create a kind of shorthand.

[talix18.livejournal.com]

So I'm bored at work and going through your journal, because you are fun to read and so much of what I wish I was...

Anyway, you know I don't like Kieran. I'm not exactly sure why - I'm not sure when it started. The way you describe how you don't want him to be - whiny and arrogant - is kind of how I see him. Could that still be coming through after all this time?