Awake.

[shadesong]

Judah came home at around 10 last night. He walked in and asked me how I was; I set aside my knitting, thought about it, and said, "Awake."

He considered me. "You look awake."

I took the med that was messing me up for the last time Friday night. Sunday through Wednesday, I had massive fatigue and brainfogginess. Yesterday? I felt clear as a bell, and had more energy than I've had in years.

Not kidding. Years.

I didn't say anything here, because what if it's a fluke? I had a very busy day of getting things done, some of which I'd been putting off for ages. Just in case I didn't have energy today, I did as much as I could yesterday.

I woke up today with the same energy.

I've finished the epic 34-page mostly-essays grant application that's been staring me down. I did all of the laundry in the house. (Usually I can maybe get a load done, but might not have the energy to put it away. I put everything away.) I cleaned. I organized. I planned. It's only almost-3. I still have time and energy to do more.

And I am happy.

Oh, please let this be my new normal. Please, please, please. I need this.

Comments

[lightcastle.livejournal.com]

*crossing all my fingers*

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Wait. Can't type.

*crossing some of my fingers*

[katyakoshka.livejournal.com]

I remember when I stopped taking amitriptyline (low-dose for migraines). One week later, I felt like I'd woken up for the first time in months. I can only imagine how much clearer you feel.

[sariel-t.livejournal.com]

I am so happy for you!!

[sophy.livejournal.com]

Just in case I didn't have energy today, I did as much as I could yesterday.

Oh I know that well.

Hope this is your new normal!!

[metachaos.livejournal.com]

Here's hoping!

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

Fingers definitely crossed.

[crewgrrl.livejournal.com]

I remember feeling that way once I started my SSRI. I had an appetite, and I had ENERGY! Here's hoping that this continues to work.

[fangirl715.livejournal.com]

Yes, please let this be your new normal, and may everyone I know have happy, pain-free, energetic new normals. *crosses fingers, prays*

[phantom_wolfboy]

I'll keep my fingers crossed.

[lawbabeak.livejournal.com]

You know, even if it meant going out in headgear and a flak vest, in case of random seizure, I think this life would be better than what you were surviving before. And you'd get awesome stickers for your headgear.

[gunshotbeauty.livejournal.com]

i meant to comment on your last entry but didn't. i went through something similar and i went through similar to what you're getting now. fingers crossed it lasts xox

[grntserendipity.livejournal.com]

YAY! *crosses finger* I really hope this is your new normal.

[slipjig.livejournal.com]

*crosses every available digit in favor of the new normal* *hugs*

[voiceofisaac.livejournal.com]

Here's hoping!

[lawbabeak.livejournal.com]

Something else occurred to me as I drifted off to sleep (because, you know, random things do that):

You might have a fibro flare coming. Your body is probably not used to all this activity. Suddenly active, for me, often means fibro flare 3 to 5 days later.

But you know what? Fuck it. It's a flare, not death incarnate. Be nice to yourself and it will go away and you'll have fewer of them as your bodily systems get accustomed to more activity.

[greylistening.livejournal.com]

Please let this be Shadesong's new normal.

[thegreenyear.livejournal.com]

joining the rest in crossing my fingers for you.