I prefer to think of it as being in heat.... like small rodents who go into heat every week for about 4 days. The other 3 days.. I'm just a wee bit energetic... to say the least.
Regrettably, it's not nearly as easy when you're the submissive...*sigh* When what I really want is for *Chris* to fuck *me* senseless, and he's tired from work or not in the mood. *sigh*
And yeah, toys are a girl's best friend sometimes! Not to mention that sometimes me playing with toys can change his mind... ^_-
*sigh* I miss the scene.... I mean, yendi is wonderful, but he's very vanilla. He says he can try to be Dom, but in my experience, there is no *try* - you either naturally are or you're not.
I haven't been in it formally for some time, but I'm polyamorous and always used to have a Dom as a secondary partner. It's been very weird to adjust to vanilla monogamy!
Yeah... that week is so the worst.. all the more unfun due to my lack of someone to make sensless.... Add to that the 4 days a week on the "down" weeks.. it's just bad very very bad. I should get a toy.. boy or otherwise.. but I just haven't gotten around to it.
Toys are fun, toys are nice (though I really need to get the GoodVibes paper catalog, since I can't exactly look at the site at work, and I have no home 'net access anymore, so at the moment I can't order any new toys), but I'd still like to have a boy on call. I miss the general physical closeness and the someone-to-talk-to parts more than anything (I was too uptight to let myself enjoy the naughty bits when I did have a boy, so my experience there is limited). It's rather sad to be 29 and not even know what I like.
Eesh, I'm nearly ready for a "desperate and dateless" event. Or else I really should get a dog...my Fortress of Solitude is a very quiet place and needs some livening up.
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"Cordy, I'm a 16 year old male... linoleum makes me wanna have sex."
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Times like today, I'm just really horny. I'll go home and fuck
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And yeah, toys are a girl's best friend sometimes! Not to mention that sometimes me playing with toys can change his mind... ^_-
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Eesh, I'm nearly ready for a "desperate and dateless" event. Or else I really should get a dog...my Fortress of Solitude is a very quiet place and needs some livening up.