Trying

[shadesong]

Going to try to be quiet-ish for the next few days, as all that's going on in my head is how this medication is making my brain richochet around like a ferrett on acid in a very small box and is making me dizzy - thought-dizzy, not body-dizzy. And also how agitated my body is. Twitch twitch. Like being toxically over-caffeinated. But without actually having any more caffeine than my usual single cup of coffee. Wanting to yell/scream. Wanted to cut last night, but didn't. Be proud!

I have to get through this. I have to get through this. I have to get through this. Because it might get *better*.

It'll just take me, um, at least two months. To stabilize.

But there is not a goddamn thing I can do about that. Two-plus months of this and then maybe no side effects, or minimal side effects.... or running back to Lamictal, do not pass go, do not collect $200, and deal with known side effects.

Fuuuuuck.

This is really unpleasant.

Unpleasant is an understatement.

This is Day Two of 200mg/Lamictal and 500mg/Keppra.

I'm going to be going up to 1,000mg of Keppra.

I am not handling 500 well At All. But then, at 300 Lamictal when I was first building up, I was literally falling down...

Aaaagh.

Anyway. That's really all I can think about. That and Fred the Breast Lump, but hopefully they'll discover on Monday that Fred is benign and I won't have that to worry about.

Just. Really fucking unpleasant.

Understatement.

And that's what's going on in MY world.

Comments

[natf.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
Doesn't it suck how everything like this seems to come at once?
I am going through a whole bunch of medical issues, an upcoming operation and medication changes right now as well...

[shadesong.livejournal.com]

Yee! Luck to you...