Happy Thursday!

Administration
Hello to new friend night_child, and welcome back to dawnalone!

Car
So I have a new Panasonic car stereo. And I also have what I was counting on, because I know my father.... a washed, vacuumed, fully serviced car. The car is all sparkly clean, inside and out.

This has the added benefit of pissing my mother off, because she doesn't like it when he does stuff like that for me. So nyah to Mom. (The favorites game has never been a secret in my house - Mom favors my sister because she's The Pretty One, Dad favors me because I'm The Smart One.)

Mayfly Time
Neil Gaiman used that phrase in his blog recently, to describe how the internet works; half an hour on the internet is a few months in the real world, in terms of life cycle.

I think I live in mayfly time; I always have. Yesterday was me cycling through a set of responses that takes normal people weeks. Sorry if I gave you whiplash. It's all cool now.

This also affects the communication thing. I'm high-maintenance when beginning a friendship or relationship. I need to know that you're thinking of me, that we're on the same page, at least once a day, or I feel forgotten, marginalized. Once I'm secure in where I am with you, I don't need such constant reassurance.

You will notice that, if you know me in person, I'll touch you a lot - just lightly, a hand on your arm or back or hair; like Pooh and Piglet, I just want to be sure of you.

That's where a lot of my current yo-yoing has come from....

Plans
Tonight - Edo, then coffee.
Tomorrow: Freaky Friday with irana and Taylor
Saturday sometime: vidicon and I are trying to schedule some time to hang out!
Sunday night: Phone date with penguinboi.

These weekend plans actually do leave me with more time than I'm accustomed to! Which will be a Good Thing... I owe Elayna a couple of rounds of Clue, and I want to watch A Little Princess with her - and she wants to get her ears pierced before school starts.

Zen Judaism

I only rarely post e-mail forwards, but this one is too right. Thanks, avivasedai!

ZEN JUDAISM

The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single oy.

If you wish to know The Way, don't ask for directions. Argue.

Take only what is given. Own nothing but your robes and an alms bowl. Unless, of course, you have the closet space.

Let your mind be as a floating cloud. Let your stillness be as the wooded glen. And sit up straight. You'll never meet the Buddha with posture like that.

( but wait! there's more! )

I love my friends.

iresprite: "Just so you know- it's morning, you're beautiful, and the rest is improv. *hugs* Enjoy the day."

Common Interests

One of the things that came up in conversation last night was common interests - hanging out with a person just because they share a relatively obscure common interest with you.

I don't do this... but that may be partly because I'm accustomed to no one sharing my interests! I grew up mostly on my own, with one good friend who was totally different from me. Major undersocialization, which has led to my difficulty grokking social cues as an adult, but that's a whole 'nother post.

This led me to thinking about how solitary I actually am... I don't seek out people who are like me, because I don't think there really are any, and I've adjusted to that. It's a happy surprise when someone is interested in one of my interests, but it's never a thing I'd expect. I'm used to being alone in lots of things.

Tangentially, this person was averse to introducing me to his more obscure interests, because he didn't want to feel that I was pretending to be interested just to appease him, which many of his partners apparently have before. I know people like this - Like Rose, who shifted personalities every time she shifted boyfriends, chameleonlike - but I'm not one of them; if I'm not genuinely interested in something, I'll tell you! There are plenty of things that penguinboi and yendi are interested in that I'm just plain not, and that's fine. But there are also things that I AM interested in now that I'd never have discovered if not for them.

My interest is always genuine. I'm a busy girl - I don't have the time or energy to feign interest, I only make room in my life for the things that really do interest me!

Blatant comment-whoring

...because I'm bored off my ass here at work....

I start a story. You add to it, then someone else adds to yours, ad infinitum.... you know how this goes.

*ahem*

It was a dark and stormy night.

Regarding chat programs

No, I'm not avoiding y'all or blocking you - I'm just never on. I've been on AIM for maybe 5 minutes put together over the past two months! It's not something that I generally have time for....

Mmmm, also of note....

I squozeded (that's "squeezed" in 'songspeak) in time for meditation last night, after going too long without. Fell RIGHT into that headspace.... felt very directly in touch with my Lady. Asked some questions. Got some hints at answers and the knowledge that more answers would reveal themselves. Felt loved. Went to bed.

Julia's song

One of the songs that defines Julia the most is "Black Friday Rule", by Flogging Molly. In part....

I want to believe in myself once again
So I dream of a man whose hopes never end
To kiss with a girl who's as lovely as you
I'd give you my heart, if you gave me the truth

I want to believe in a freedom that's bold
But all I remember is the freedom of old

These are lines that help frame and define the story I'll be writing, where Julia gives up a truth that she does not want to give up....

relationships

How do you define a relationship? How does having a friend you love cross over into being a relationship? I have blurry lines here..... yendi, for example - we don't regard ourselves to be in a relationship; we love each other, but we're non-romantic partners.

Where do your lines and boundaries lie?

*squee!!!*

Great Big Sea is playing the Roxy on October 3! More Great Big Sea! *boogie*

Understand, GBS may be my favorite band *ever*; I've seen them twice in concert, and those were the two best concerts I've ever been to.

Does anyone know if the Roxy is general admission or assigned seating? I've never been. And who's going with us? I need someone to dance with me! yendi doesn't dance, and it's so hard to keep from dancing to Great Big Sea....

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...and the new students' e-mail addresses aren't in the system yet. And this is a huge priority thing that I can't do anything about. And I'm all horribly tense over it. And I'm fielding the phone calls for it, and I'm not good on the phone.

And it's only 2:00.

*whimper*

I need a hug.

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[Poll #165780]

one in a million....

yendi rocks and I could not manage without him.

He works in IT at the university. Not the department that's failed to put the student addresses up - but a department that has access to the list of userIDs.

He's printing it out and bringing it to me with a chai.

I am so lucky.

Responses to cheering

nomadmwe -- Um... I'll make sure to stylishly kill someone on the fencing list in your name during Pennsic? :)

That would so totally rock. That would make my day.

brother_bliss -- Kevin smith states that yeah gilgi sucked, but his movie will fucking rule.

I just worry that the suckage of Gigli will hurt Jersey Girl's box office....

cloakofwinter -- I'm not wearing any pants *and* I'm holding a duck

Officially not asking.

tygerlilly -- you have the most amazing taste ever. All the things I've enjoyed, no one else knew about, until I went to your house and drooled at the goodies you have.

Oooh! Like what?

morenasangre -- DragonCon is only 21 days away...Farren and I get to see you in 21 days!

Oh, holy shit, DragonCon is only 21 days away. *panic*

iresprite -- buttercup? *swoop hug*

Why do you build me up... buttercup, baby, just to let me down...

chrishaas -- I like you.

Wow. He answered a poll with something other than "Who is chrishaas?" I did not know that could happen.

SON OF A BITCH.

http://www.ajc.com/metro/content/metro/dekalb/0803/07dekskuls.html

"DeKalb County School Superintendent Johnny Brown said Wednesday that parents -- not principals -- will decide whether their children must abide by his controversial uniform policy."

We just spent $200 on ugly shitty uniform clothes, you pigfucker. And we're not the only ones. School starts Monday, the tax-free shopping weekend was last weekend, all the fucking uniforms in the county have been bought.

Mothersucking cockfucker, as Barry Ween would say.

*throws stapler at wall*

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Buy stuff from irana so she can afford a vibrator.

Do it now. *whipcrack*